I guess 7 November 2005 is the last day I would get to meet him this year. He will be in prayer till next year, near the end of January. How I will miss him...Do you call it a coincidence? Or do we have telepathy? I choose to think that we do have telepathy. Makes me happier. Facing a lie always is better then facing the truth. We were both wearing a black top and a blue bottom...Met at Raffles Place MRT station, walked to Lau Pa Sat. Walking back to the past once again. Had our all time favourite Cockles Fried Rice and Mutton and Chicken Satays. This time round, we got a rice cake free! Regular customer of theirs. But, I was the one who finished up everything. He only ate 3 Mutton Satays. As for drinks, it was Coconut for him and Bundung for me...After that, walked to Amara. Went to 7 11 to get his bottle of Green Tea. We parted after that. Then, I felt like as if a stone was stuck in my throat. I could not speak. Not even a good-bye. My heart felt heavy. "See you in 3 months time," was what he said. I could control no more. I just gave me a smile, turned my head and walk away. Perhaps he knew I could not bear to part, but I have to. Tears flowed down my cheeks.By the time he returns, I am not sure what are the changes that will take place in his absence. In both of our lives. It has been almost a year. But whenever he mention about her, it would just dampen my mood. I thought it was all a pretence, on my part. Maybe I just wanted to make him feel sad... guilty... But I guess I was wrong, I always reacted that way because I still do love him...Today, was asked to go to Zouk with Elaine, Junda and his friends. Glad that I went. Enjoyed myself there. Not totally though. Because in my mind, I kept thinking about him and only him... He called. Something which he never did for the past few nights. Is it also a coincidence that he wanted me to help him write a report? When I told him I am still not home at 3am, I guess he got abit worried. Sorry darling... But this made me happy. At least he still cares...The ride home was filled with me thinking of the days he drove me around in Malaysia. The times when we went to Kuala Lumpur for a getaway. This is because Junda was driving Elaine's father's car. How I miss those times... If only we can go there again for a getaway. I really need a break! Do we have a chance to do it again?
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
9:30 PM